soldier

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that i gave my all to you. I'm sorry that i fell too fast.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry i loved you.

i wish i saw this coming and i wish i stopped it before it became too bad.
i only wish i hadn't had let you in. i only wish i hadn't had broken any walls so early.

now I've reached all vulnerability. now I'm weak & it can be seen.

but i have to remain strong, i know i know. but its so scary. its so hard.
i lost and i don't know what to do and i don't know who to ask. who to seek guidance.

i don't want to break my promise, i don't.
but depression calls and I'm running out of options.

save me, before i go.
save me, before i give up.


-effy